Poem Collections - Jekyll's Carnival Night

I was scrolling through the stuff I’ve written throughout the years and came across some stuff I’ve dabbled in since 1997. I’ve written poems on and off for the last 28 years and thought, hey! Why not put some of those up here for others to see?

I will say this. The topic range from fantasy, namely of the world I’ve built, nature, and thoughts on darker elements with a Christian theme as this is the life I know best as I went through it. It’s what I’ve written most on plus having the longest verses. As I’ve said, the theme isn’t fluffy (though I do have some of those too).

The poem being shared here is one of the last ones I wrote which was 5 years ago. As someone pointed out, poems don’t fit in a single box with set fixed rules and all have to conform to set number of syllables, words, etc. Mine certainly do not with the exception of a few I made explicitly this way.

“Jekyll’s Carnival Night” is a view of a man’s attempt to be good while the heart pulls him into a dark reality, his fight and ultimately the heart’s dark power over human nature.

- Jekyll's Carnival Night -

Jeremiah 17:9-10 "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it? 'I the Lord search the heart and test the mind, to give every man according to his ways, according to the fruit of his deeds.'"*

dear heart of mine, keep me sane and in keeping with the times
I am only one, but hoping not the illusion of the masses
when time fades and I am wasted, a name is but a fading memory

dear mind of mine, I will make you into a thing remembered
I will be known as the king of dreams, never to be forgotten
I will take you on a carnival ride for the world to see

I've seen your side, do not steer me to the dark side of the mind
when I was young and afraid, I let you steal me away
to that place in the dark recesses, a world without end

ah, but see this smiling face? I am the whirlwind of smiling fun
I will delight and will have my way, for I am the other half
hear my screaming pulse of raging need? it's the blood of craving dreams

I now steal the show, the lights are coming down, the world a carnival show
my need overpowers the will and now to test it on the road
look at that delightful form so beautiful, i say take and drain her away

I hear your silent plea but it's too late my twin, I dance to the drum beat
pulsing blood and a kill, my eyes are elated with delight and heart beats
where has the fun been hiding when stuffed with moral saddened winds?

too soon now, I am fading down a different road I did not want to go
what is happening to the fun and the beating of this carnival show?
i am fading slowly into the abyss of darkness and decay

why has the happiness gone so soon? my world of fun has come to an end
on the screeching gears now burned out and hollow from a stake
pierced deep into the blackest heart of this carnivore heart

washed in pain without end, where is my twin to help me rise again?
where is the mind to lead me out of the hell I'm in?
alas, the mind has faded to black, washed in misery and pain

the heart had its way so long, the carnival night stole the will
to fight the heart's delights and nightly carnival rides
now the will to live is but a single spark in the fading light

will you ever listen carnivore heart to the will of your maker?
oh spirit breathed soul, take back control of the carnivore flesh
redeem your life with the one who breathed you to life

Copyright (c) 2020, Andrew D Nusz